Currently Listening A Decade see related

EVOLVE OR FACE EXTINCTION

Currently Listening 93 'Til Infinity By Souls of Mischief see related

- 93 'Til Infinity

Why I shouldn't watch horror movies...

I'm such an idiot... everytime I watch a horror movie... I inevitably get scared yet that fact does not deter me from watching them. I just saw the Exorcism of Emily Rose... yes yes, I know, for those who saw it already may think that it wasn't that freaky... however I pose to the contrary. Alot of ppl expected a thriller type, the ring, the grudge type with the theme developed from The Exorcist. To many's dismay, it wasn't. The movie is actually about the trial of the priest involved in the events. However, it does have its scary moments... it does have the usual "pop-up" or "loud bang" stuff... whats really eerie about it was the atmosphere...and the fact that it was based on real events. Anyways, I don't wanna ruin it for those who still haven't seen it.

Well here I am blogging again as a means of procrastination. A whole week I spent in Toronto for reading week and exactly how much did I read you ask? 10 pages of Contract Law... so now I feel like an idiot lugging all my books back to Windsor unopened... I really gotta stop this trend of procrastination... sometimes I wish I was a keener... you know those ppl with good study habits and always willing to go above and beyond for that special 1 extra percent... I envy them so much because they are always prepared... while me on the other hand is constantly unprepared... I know I have said this before... but here goes... the sloth stops here... I need to get my learn on... I have added this to my culmulative and non-exhaustive list of New Year Resolutions... so far I have

Goals for 2006

1. be less of an a$$hole [less angry & prideful]
2. be more grateful for everything [concentrate on the positive]
3. be a better boyfriend [i think i can accomplish this with the successful implementation of one & two]
4. be a happier person in general [cuz its the accumulation of all the little stress that kills ya in the end]
5. be a better student [school is not everything but it counts for something]

I hope I can achieve these goals... in the end... nothing really matters except for happiness... that is all what we really strive for... here are some words I found to be quite meaningful:

"Life is what you make of it, always has been and always will be"

Currently Listening Superunknown By Soundgarden see related

[edit ~ Dec. 17/05 ~ 6:55am]  

I saw something today that truly made me sad... it really makes me think that what is all the struggling, fighting and suffering that people do in the world really for? its not something very significant in the way of the tragedies of this world... it is something that we overlook everyday... tho we might spend a split second... a minute thought on it... in the end... it is put aside to our more mundane concerns and affairs... we r usually too engrossed in our own insignificant affairs to really give notice or thought to such a thing... i'm no different usually but it must either be my insomnia... isolation... exam studying that gave me a glimpse of a different perspective... and before i forget about it... i would like to express it.....

there i was... waiting in line to buy breakfast at the residence cafe early in the morning before my exam... i noticed that next to me was a student in a wheelchair struggling to grab a fruit cup because it was placed in a manner where his wheelchair did not fit... and there it hit me.. i'm sure that we all felt like this before...at that moment i felt both guilt for being more fortunate and grateful for all that i have. it makes me wonder sometimes, is all the strife we cause to ourselves worth it? ppl r always struggling and for what? we get angry, depressed, and anxious over petty affairs... shallow things... but there we have ppl who is struggling everyday over things we take for granted... it was a struggle for that student to just grab a fruit cup, its a constant daily struggle for him to do everyday things that we never give thought to. Yet, he does it with a cheerful attitude... to me that is strength I dont't think I will ever have or understand... in his presence... i felt little... petty... undeserving.... i can only imagine how hard things must be for him...

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I haven't blogged in a long time... during this hiatus... I was going through some transitions... funny thing I realized is that no matter whatever changes... in the end... you stay the same. I take some comfort in knowing that. Well that's not to say that I stay stagnant and unchanged in an ever-changing world [ like refusing to use email or still going up to the teller cuz i dont trust ATMs... hahaha I do that sometimes... anyways] but that the core of what I am remains the same in face of adversity. Maybe I m too simplistic to ever really change. What I found change is my ever changing perspectives... I reflect without any regret... because without any of it... I wouldn't be who am I today [I know this sounds cliche] Yet, what seems to be haunting me lately is a change of perspectives... when I reflect, I find greater understanding of myself and how narrowly minded I was before... another thing that is disturbing me lately is that I have been reminiscing about the past... which isn't a bad thing per se... but it makes me feel old... hahaha

Disregard this post. I' m writing this due to insomnia which has been of late, my new affliction... the usual affliction of sloth and gluttony i still hold onto dearly mind you. Generally, my posts are usually angry rants... well here is one... i thought higher education would be enlightening but how disillusioned I was! I sometimes feel like Holden Caulfield... stuck in a world of "phonies." I think that I have been truly blessed by my earlier experiences at school & work... and only currently have I been thrusted into the real world... I think in time I will adapt... adapt to function accordingly to such a world but I will never like it. The silver lining is that I appreciate everything so much more especially my family and friends. For once, I'm truly grateful for everything. Thank you.

I was checking out my man-lover [ aka Dreadron] 's page and came across this quiz... so I decided to take it and see if we are compatible... then I got this... surprisingly to a certain extent... it is quite an accurate depiction about me... weird... u should try the quiz.

http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.